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PostHeaderIcon Should I Keep Writing?

Reality
As I sat in my room and scrolled though the pictures of me and my family from our Florida vacation that we had took during the summer. The week in Florida had flown by. Now back in the mist of all the chaos with the start of school, my sisters pulling their usual stunts, my mom freaking out about my youngest brother starting kindergarten, that week with no worries it was forever ago. But as I scrolled though the pictures I came across one of me and my sisters. The three of us smiling our identical smiles.
If a stranger had looked at this picture they would have said that me and my sisters are identical. Which is true we are, we are identical triplets. But yet that is only on the outside, on the inside we are different people.
Amber is the oldest. She’s the party girl. The sister who sneaks in at 2 in the morning drunk, high, or both. She was reckless and dangerous with her friends, but she knew how to walk the walk and talk the talk in front of our parents and others parents as well. She was a whole fifteen minutes older than Amethyst and seven minutes older than me.
Amethyst was the youngest. She is the popular one. The sister that is a total ***** at school but a sweetheart at home. She is a cheerleader, on all the committees and not to mention she is dating the quarterback on the football team. She might be the youngest but she also knows how to party.
Then there is me. Jade the middle triplet. I’m the innocent one. I don’t go to parties, I’ve never drank, smoked, or had sex. I pay attention in church, I’ve only dated a few boys all who my parents approved of. I was a overly safe driver, I never snuck out. I’ve never even rolled someone’s house. I was the one who while my parents hovered over my sisters and brother they barely paid attention to me cause they knew that I wouldn’t get in trouble or do something bad.
But on the outside me and my sisters are identical. I looked at the picture for a little while. Or at least until someone knocked on my bedroom door.
“Who is it?” I asked as I stuck the camera on my bedside table.
“Its Amber,” My sister said though the door, “Can I come in?”
“Sure,” As she entered I was shocked to see she was wearing jeans and a short shelve shirt- I was a little annoyed to notice that it was my shirt- and not her normal skimpy dresses or reveling shirts.
“What do you want?” I asked her as she came and sat on my bed next to me. She looked different somehow I couldn’t put my finger on it, but there was definitely something off about her. I started to study her but then she started talking.
“I wanna talk,” She said. This had to be some other Amber than the one that lived to two feet down the hall from me. Amber never wanted to talk, she was a fabulous person, but she never ever wanted to talk. If there was something wrong her advise was “Get drunk or something, go to a party.”
“What do you want to talk about?” I asked her. She gave me a look it made me kind of nervous. Because even thought I’ve lived with her my entire life, if always felt she was better than me. It was like when you walked by the popular crowd and they gave you a once over and decided you weren’t cool enough and laughed. Like she was better at this whole being sixteen thing.
“You,” She said, shocking me to an even further expectant.
“Why do you want to talk about me?” I asked her.
This is the very beging whould you keep reading?
Its a teen love story. Kinda.
And i know its shaky but its the being i just wrote it.

PostHeaderIcon Was It Legal To Exclude My Son From Field Trip Due To His Placement Because Of His Disabilities?

Okay… the school succeeded in pissing me off this morning. When I dropped Elijah off at his school this morning his 1:1 aid told me she was a little upset that all the kindergarteners at the K-2 school up the hill went on a field trip yesterday to an animal farm. She did not get notified of this trip and neither did I. She has spoken to the SPED director several times about including Elijah in trips, performances, etc. with his peers. Is this legal? From my understanding it seems that it might be a violation of Section 504 because he was excluded do to his placement which is a result of his disabilities (PDD-NOS, SPD, BP)…. The school district only had one substantially seperate classroom in the whole district which is at his current school of 3-4th graders. We told the SPED director that we wanted him included in activities with his peers from kindergarten. When his aid was talking about it this morning Elijah mentioned how he would have petted the animals like this… showed with a gentle hand, and how he would have fed the baby sheep it’s bottle. He looked sad too that he was excluded.
His aid also told me that the rest of the kindergarteners are having a Memorial Day Program which she did not get informed about. They all started practicing thier songs last month, but he did not have a chance to. I don’t even think that the plan was to include Elijah, but his 1:1 aid is going to get a couple songs that they are singing, teach him them, and bring him any ways.
Another thing the kindergarteners have their own computer based reading program called Lexia that his aid is doing with him… yes his aid… not the SPED teacher. She is getting some good teaching experience because it seems that she is his unofficial teacher. Any ways the teachers, assistants, etc. got a three day training on this program which is new a couple weeks ago. She did not get informed of the training, so she did not go until the second day when she found out from word of mouth, not from a supervisor, that it was going on. So great not only is my son excluded from field trips, but his aid is being denied the right training do to his placement as well….
I guess I should look on the bright side… at least Elijah is getting to go on a field trip on a Trolly Tour with the 3-4th graders that I am chaperoning him on. When they told me about the trip they were telling me that they did not know if maybe I wanted to drive the 90+ miles and meet them there because he might not do good on the bus. No thank you! I told them that I would go and he would be fine if we get to sit up front where he won’t be able to see all the other kids.
I already called the SPED director but he was not in his office so I left messages. Later this afternoon I will call the SPED director back. I also wrote letters which I am going to bring to the SPED director and Superintendent’s offices which state my concerns. I felt like going down to the SPED director’s office and waiting for him to return but that might be unprofessional.
Just a reminder: his placement is in the 3rd-4th grade school. The kindergarteners go to the K-2 school which is up the hill a few feet away. The only substantially separate class our school district has is the class Elijah is in at the 3-4th grade school.

PostHeaderIcon What Do You Think Of These Colleges? (please Help Me, I Need It! Lol)?

im so scared i wont get into a college i want to go to.
my grades are 85-89 i think its a 3.3 or 3.4 gpa.
my sat scores are very bad. i only took it once tho i will be taking it 2 more times, they are: critical reading 400, math 520, and writting 470. i already took a course for the sat so i dont know what else to do.
i am involved in 2 clubs at my school AFS( american feild service) and yearbook club. outside of school i volunteer at a hospital, kindergarten school, and i am involved in youth court ( its real court cases for kids 15 and under and we are the defense, judge ext.) i have like 300 hours all together.
One more thing is i want to major in Premed, i want to be a doctor or some sort lol
the schools i want to go to are:
University of Conneticuit- i want to go here the most!!!!
Northeastern University
Boston University
SUNY Albany
University of Massachusettes (amherst)
University of New Hampshire
University of Vermont
University of Maryland
Villanova
Rutgers
Syracuse University
SUNY Buffalo
University of Delaware
University of Pittsburg
University of Virginia
University of Rhode Island ( i dont really even know what this is but my mom says i’ll get into it maybe)
University of Long Island ( im not sure if this is good either)
i know these are prob all reach schools but idk what to do. i love big schools. i want to swim in college ( im not good enough for a scholarship tho, and im not on a team any more) i used to be on a team in middle school but my high school doesnt have a swim team.
any opinions of me getting into these schools!!!
or any other schools i should try
thank you sooo much!!

PostHeaderIcon Why Is It When African Americans Acquire Positions Of Power, People Attribute It To Affirmative Action?

I have been reading quite a number of posts associated with President Elect Obama and his wife. A central theme is affirmative action. I have done quite an enormous amount of research on affirmative action and I truly think that out of ignorance or the need to minimize the success and importance of a group of people, many in society truly do not understand the nature of affirmative action (AA). AA was created to give QUALIFIED minorities equal access and equal opportunity. Research clearly shows there is a disparity as related to minorities and their caucasian counterparts as related to test scores, opportunities etc. The research doesn’t lie. Yet and still I see statements that Barack and Michelle achieved their successes because of AA. No, they achieved their successes because they are intelligent, hardworking, multitalented individuals. There were no handouts. A history of higher education show that desegration was a huge challenge in our nation. Believe me, there are no unqualified minorities out there who are barely passing receiving anything due to AA. However those of us who are the best and the brightest (including yours truly because I kicked butt in the classroom- kindergarten through my current doctoral program and in my profession) wanted equal opportunity and consideration. If you know the history of our great United States you know that the country has not been fair and equitable to minorities especially as related to education and hiring practices. I am where I am today because I am intelligent, hardworking, forwardthinking, fair, a darn good strategist, and because I had parents who told me that the only way I would rise above racism is to educate myself as if my life depended on it.

PostHeaderIcon Did I Overreact? Please Answer!?

heey, thank you so much for reading this!
this guy who was in a bunch of my classes and stuff starting smiling at me, talking to me, joking around, even during my spare came and sat and talked to me, flirted and joked on msn for suree, we were kinda in different social groups, he ws popular. so every sign pointed that he may like me, and he was cute and seemed sweet and stuff. so me and my bf were talking and she convinced me to tell him, only she would tell him and pretend i didnt know she told him ( i know very kindergarten lmao) anyways so she texted him ( at 11;11 by accident haah) kinda just saying that she thought that i might like him or w/e and it was a cute text. so after a while, no response. so she was talking to him on msn and just casually brought up his phone and he sais he had lost it etc. so i kinda knew in a way it might not be true and he just didnt like me, which is fine but he was soo flirty, so my best guy friend decided to text him and tell him. so my bf said casually haha i think ___ might have like ya a bit, what do you think of her, and this is a quote he said” well, lets be honest – i’d do her, but i wouldnt date her” so he told me what he said on the phone and i had liked this guy for about 6 months. its not what he said, it was HOW he said it, i mean that is SO mean, he could have just said oh shes cool but no or something. anyway i cried alot lol, and then my my best girl friend (honestly without me knowing this time) msgd him and said that that was so mean to say etc. and now schools back in and that was months ago but i dont talk to him, he doesnt talk to me, but like opinions?
ps thanks for reading, i will def award 10 points to the best haha!!

PostHeaderIcon I Am Fed Up And Don’t Know What To Do With My 10 Year Old?

He is in 4th grade now and I have been going through the same thing every year (ever since kindergarten). Every teacher has told me he is very bright but he doesn’t apply himself. He is reading at a 7th grade reading level and is in G.A.T.E. classes 2 days a week (gifted and talented education). My problem is that he wants to be the class clown and doesn’t do his class work or homework ( I check his homework every night but he only does half of it and says he is done I am just finding out from his teacher, I thought that what he had done was all he had to do ). He has gotten 2 demerits this week from not doing homework and school work and if he gets one more he is suspended. We have tried everything, we have grounded him from friends, video games, tv, toys and even gutted out his room. Spanking has not worked either. Any suggestions? He is too smart to be doing this stuff and I don’t know what to do for him anymore.

PostHeaderIcon I Have A Question For Moms?

Hi moms,
I have a kid, she’s in kindergarten. So last week I got an email from one of the kid’s mom in the same group in kindergarten where my daughter goes. I have never met this mom before, from her letter I understand that her daughter would love to have a play date with my daughter. While reading the email, my phone rings, I answer the phone and here is this mom who sent me an email. Let’s call her Lee. So we are talking on the phone and she goes: “Hi, we have never met before but I promised my daughter she can have a friend to play with at our house tonite and she chose your daughter. We have a whole program planned – swimming, arts and crafts, and then a movie. I can pick your daughter up after school, or you can drop her off.”
So It all sounded ridiculous to me, I don’t know these people and she is offering to pick my daughter after classes (who is only 5 y/o!), so I said that I don’t feel comfortable that my daughter will be in her house without my presence there, and that nobody else can pick our daughter up from school, only me and her dad. I was trying to be nice on the phone, and said it would be great If we could get the girls together to play at the park, and meet each other in person.
What I heard from Lee after I said all that – she said she was insulted, and she couldn’t believe I didn’t trust my daughter to be at her house, and that If they were bad people I would have heard about it.
I said that I didn’t mean to hurt her feelings, but I can’t let my 5 y/o daughter to stay in the house of people who I don’t know at all.
That woman got offended and felt insulted by my rejection. What do you, moms, think about the whole situation? I just think it’s bizzare and no normal mom would accept the invitation, even though that woman said it is an American way to have play dates, and that this is very common.
Waiting for your views. Thank you.

PostHeaderIcon Friendship?

My best friend whos a boy is acting weird. He ignores me all of the time. I’ve known him Since Kindergarten. When we were in kindergarten we always played together and stuff. Our mom’s were really good friends too. But now hes acting weird. Is it because he has a girlfriend? I dont get it. I asked him wats wrong and he said nothing. I ask the same question every week. He stopped emailing me 4 sum reason, and stopped calling me, and just stopped talking to me… I dont know if its because of me, or sumthhin else. IWhenever i call him, the lines always busy. When i email him, he never mails me back! I’m getting so tired of it! Now we r in middle school! Its weird how whenever his mom brings him over so she can see my mom, all he does is call his girlfriend, and goes on his email! i watched him on his email! he deletes all of my msges without reading them!

PostHeaderIcon Do You Think I Have Depression…?

Okay well I am 13 years old, and ever since I was in kindergarten I have had anxiety. I use to have anxiety attacks a lot throughout school and went the schoolcounsel orr everyday practically from kindergarten – to grade 5. Then I stopped, you see my whole life I have been fat and horribly bullied i use to get so upset and angry about it when people made names. I have always got into fights and especially my parents and friends and recently I lost my two bebest friendshrough a fight. I am the type of person to never drop things that bother me and over react sosome days act like I doesn’t bother me but those are the days where im the worst. My parents are putting me in cocounselling again this year for anger issues because I always complain when told to do simple tasks and I always feel lethargic and sad. I have self harmed in the last year and now recently I do self harm because I hate to feel dead inside and sad and being so fat. I will smoke ciggarettes and push the hot butts into my thigh an take glass and cut over and over until its deep. I have tried marijuana a couple times and liked it, I drink with my friends whenever. Self harming and doing bad things like stealing and drugs make me escape from reality. You see people are very mean to me I mean everyone has said fat things about me whether it be my family or my friends, strangers, bullies. Now i am beggining to cry and irregulate sleeping patterns for instence I woke up today from crying and almost about to have a panic attack. My family and me get into fights and my parents hit me and I mouth them off and tell them I hate them. I know they love me its just that I can’t control my anger and put up a fuss foreverything and I cry an get super angry at them. Just last week my mum hit me a few times pushed me outta the house and said “You little ***** ! And rude child and everything bad I can think of Your father hates you Megan {sis} hates you brandon {bro} hates you and IVE HATED YOU FOR THE LONGEST!” then she told me to go leave her house drown or go die cause it will make her happy. I know i am mouthy to them but they treat me like dirt and make fun of me… Also I get hit the most by my parents in my family and im the youngest i do get away with alot too. I just hate myself and being fat and find food a comfort.
I have:
-family htting me
-friends hitting me before not my friends anymore
-me drinking/smoking/majuana/stealing with friends
-getting left out by people
-overreacting about stuff
-sleeping off an on staying up all night sleeping all day hardly sleeping
-my parenst calling me fat
-bullies calling me fat
-i try to stand up but I just feel weak i have stood up before/let things slide
-not caring about myself
-feeling useless
-feeling blue all the time
-only thing that takes my mind off stuff is doing something wild or getting something that i want like shopping or reading
-eating alot
-refusing to do simple tasks
-crying
-panic attacks
-self harm cutting/burning alot of people know not my family but no one really cares at myschool its like a trend
-getting angry and braking stuff
-thinking about suicide but i really just wanna feel more alive
-picking apart myself
-lieing
-avoiding friends or family functions
-confinding myself in my room
-before I have looked through the medicine cabinet trying to find something to numb the pain all i could find was lame 600 mg of ibuprofen which i took 1800 mg
-feeling lost
-not wanting to be seen by people yet pretending at times i have confidence
-worrying alot
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Basically I just want help I want to feel alive no dead anymore I WANT to be thin and pretty i wanna feel happy for just no reason at all not just when i go get high or drunk
I have alot Of stuff to stay but basically I just want help…. answers too
ALSO sometimes I feel awesome then life just sucks….

PostHeaderIcon So I Wanna Teach But Im Torn Between 2..can You Help?

So i wanna teach kindergarten but i was wondering what its like =) i imagine it to be so much fun and i love the thought of helping children in their first years of school. but i’m torn between that and becoming a professor because of the better pay and the more intellectual conversations. i also want to make my parents happy because they dont see teaching kindergarten as great as being a professor. plus i dont think i can afford to go to school for much longer because im paying for my own schooling.
thanks for reading my rant and if you could please share with me your thoughts i would be very happy <3

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