Do You Think I Have Depression…?
Okay well I am 13 years old, and ever since I was in kindergarten I have had anxiety. I use to have anxiety attacks a lot throughout school and went the schoolcounsel orr everyday practically from kindergarten – to grade 5. Then I stopped, you see my whole life I have been fat and horribly bullied i use to get so upset and angry about it when people made names. I have always got into fights and especially my parents and friends and recently I lost my two bebest friendshrough a fight. I am the type of person to never drop things that bother me and over react sosome days act like I doesn’t bother me but those are the days where im the worst. My parents are putting me in cocounselling again this year for anger issues because I always complain when told to do simple tasks and I always feel lethargic and sad. I have self harmed in the last year and now recently I do self harm because I hate to feel dead inside and sad and being so fat. I will smoke ciggarettes and push the hot butts into my thigh an take glass and cut over and over until its deep. I have tried marijuana a couple times and liked it, I drink with my friends whenever. Self harming and doing bad things like stealing and drugs make me escape from reality. You see people are very mean to me I mean everyone has said fat things about me whether it be my family or my friends, strangers, bullies. Now i am beggining to cry and irregulate sleeping patterns for instence I woke up today from crying and almost about to have a panic attack. My family and me get into fights and my parents hit me and I mouth them off and tell them I hate them. I know they love me its just that I can’t control my anger and put up a fuss foreverything and I cry an get super angry at them. Just last week my mum hit me a few times pushed me outta the house and said “You little ***** ! And rude child and everything bad I can think of Your father hates you Megan {sis} hates you brandon {bro} hates you and IVE HATED YOU FOR THE LONGEST!” then she told me to go leave her house drown or go die cause it will make her happy. I know i am mouthy to them but they treat me like dirt and make fun of me… Also I get hit the most by my parents in my family and im the youngest i do get away with alot too. I just hate myself and being fat and find food a comfort.
I have:
-family htting me
-friends hitting me before not my friends anymore
-me drinking/smoking/majuana/stealing with friends
-getting left out by people
-overreacting about stuff
-sleeping off an on staying up all night sleeping all day hardly sleeping
-my parenst calling me fat
-bullies calling me fat
-i try to stand up but I just feel weak i have stood up before/let things slide
-not caring about myself
-feeling useless
-feeling blue all the time
-only thing that takes my mind off stuff is doing something wild or getting something that i want like shopping or reading
-eating alot
-refusing to do simple tasks
-crying
-panic attacks
-self harm cutting/burning alot of people know not my family but no one really cares at myschool its like a trend
-getting angry and braking stuff
-thinking about suicide but i really just wanna feel more alive
-picking apart myself
-lieing
-avoiding friends or family functions
-confinding myself in my room
-before I have looked through the medicine cabinet trying to find something to numb the pain all i could find was lame 600 mg of ibuprofen which i took 1800 mg
-feeling lost
-not wanting to be seen by people yet pretending at times i have confidence
-worrying alot
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Basically I just want help I want to feel alive no dead anymore I WANT to be thin and pretty i wanna feel happy for just no reason at all not just when i go get high or drunk
I have alot Of stuff to stay but basically I just want help…. answers too
ALSO sometimes I feel awesome then life just sucks….
All of these things will build your character. Don’t allow anyone to put a label on you. If what you have tried so far isn’t working, try something else. Take up a hobby, try to get more exercise, get outside, meet some new friends, do something good like volunteer somewhere. Don’t allow someone else to shape who you become. Use all of this negative as a positive and turn everything around. I am sure you have a lot to offer. Don’t focus on the evil ppl that want to make themselves feel better by thrusting misery on you. Just break out of this cycle, it will be difficult, but you can do it. Good Luck….
no you’re just acting out.
i think you have depression. i mean … well with those circumstances who would not get depressed? or you might be bipolar. when you are happy are you very happy? i think you should talk to someone. like a teacher or counselor and see if they can reccomment anyone
You need to tell your counselor that your parents hit you. If the counselor doesn’t care, then find one who does. Call a Social Worker (child protective services) It’s wrong to yell at your parents, but it’s worse(illegal) for them to hit you and talk to you the way they do. Being raised by a loving family can make all the difference in the world to a kid’s mental health. I’m so sorry you’re having these problems. Doing drugs and drinking will just make them worse. Find friends who don’t drink or do drugs. There ARE nice people out there who care about you. I do!
Well … truly happy people don’t feel dead or want to die.
Truly happy people don’t do drugs.
Truly happy people don’t inflict injury upon themselves.
You sound like a more severe version of myself, and I have been told that I am mildly depressed. I am going to seek therapy and medication soon because I think there is reasonable cause to believe that I have GAD. I’m not sure if that is you, since you haven’t expressed what is called “apprehensive expectation” (anxiety, fear, worry, and persistent thoughts of potential misfortune). [nativeremedies.com's Anxiety E-booklet] In any case, please do get therapy and possibly medication, with or without your family guiding you through it. If you are this troubled at 13 and you don’t do something, it will only get worse with age.
If you can enable e-mail through Y!A, please do, and let’s talk. It could be like a support group …
Yea kinda i think u need somthing to believe in and don’t care what another ppls say to u just tell them to F off and don’t say that stuff to ur parents if u truely love them just be like please leave me alone casue it may be the last time they see u they may die tonight or any time get off drugs and go buy a Bible read it casue i used ta be just like u until i had somthing to believe in